AFTER HOURS.. (INSOMNIA)

WWWWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is for real, I am now really suffering from that fuckin' insomnia! I wanna go to sleep like damn! I wanna rest my eyes cause my eye bags are so HUGE! My face has no space for new pimples and my skin is so fuckin' ugly! I'm just 17 years old but I think I look like 20! God! Please help me Lord. I don't know what to do. I close my eyes, but still stuffs are goin into my mind. I'm goin crazy now!!!!!
But I have my mom and my tito with me. They're still up right now. My mom bought burgers, and now that I'm full, it'll be harder for me to sleep! DANG! and I'll get up 3 pm, I can't watch wowowee.. huhuhuhu..
I'm tired, my mind and my body want to sleep but my eyes are not participating..

I love my BEYBS.. :)

I love them so much! I'll never ever ever find another Alexandra and Idessa in my life. I will hell never replace them. Well were friends for like more than 4 years, and they taught me how to live and enjoy life.
I'm happy now, cause the three of us had time to chit-chat, share smiles with each other, and i godhole miss that! We miss each other so much that we didn't notice the time was running. I'm so comfortable with them and so are they, we share everything, as in EVERYTHING! We never keep secrets. Actually, we are 5 that are really close to each other. Me, Alexandra, Idessa, Paula and Christine, but Tin and Pau were too busy. I miss that two too. Nothing can break us, specially Alex. I admire her so much. She never ever get mad even if you did really bad thing to her, and even though Marvin (her BF) and me have a conflict, she never let our relationship be affected by that.
But to tell you all honestly, I kinda miss Marvin. We've been good friends before, his nickname always made me laugh cause they call him BEN, that's why I called him MARBEN and he was the first one to call me BENA that other peepz call me now. I know it's my fault cause I said too much to him. I know their problem is outta my business, but I just love Alex so much that I am very affected of what are happening to her. Now, I want to get back our friendship, but he's way too mad at me and he don't want me to become his friend again. I regret losing Marvin as my friend. *sigh
Well he's happy now, I should be happy too!

:)

DDDDDAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRNNN IIIIIIITTTTTTTT!!!!!!!

GOD I REALLY HATE THIS GAME! You know what? We're havin' some problems because of this fvckin online game! It's all my big bro's fault. He taught Carlo how to play this fuhreakin' game and now he's so addicted to it that he don't give much attention for me. And know what? He's getting mad at me cause I don't let him go here at our house and play this sickening ROHAN! uuuuurrrrrggggghhhhh!!!! I'll teach him a lesson. I'll test if what's more important, me or that rohan. I am a jelous and selfish person. I want all his attention. Is it too bad? I'm just afraid to lose him.
:'(

SUMMERRRRRR..

GAHD! It was like 20 days ago since the last time I touched my blog, and I miss this stuff. Swear. It's not that I don't have much time or I'm just too busy with wutev', it's just that I AM SO LAZY. I wanna write something but my mind and my hands were too lazy to think and to type anything. And now, that I am experiencing one of the highest potential of boredom in my whole entire life, I was urge to write.

I saw my blog account and those blogs I've wrote before, and I was not happy. I realized, it's hard to read and my style was fugly. Now, I'll try to write as formal as I can so readers (if I have any) will not find it difficult to understand what I'm saying and they'll continue reading sh!ts about me. I'll write in a blue-jeans style that my Professor in English taught me before. I'll write it casually simple and easy to understand. Right?

OH MAH GAWD! I'ts summer, and ironically rainy season. I wanna go out and hang out wherever but the rain stops me now. I don't like this feeling. My excitement in life was not as before, and i feel a lil tired of everything. I want to do lots'a things but I don't know where I'll start. Yuh I'm happy, but there is something missing. Weird? I think so.

Oh let's just change the topic. UURRRGGGGHHH!!! School is really stressing me out! I had this problem before in one of my subjects and I've already solved it. Now all of us in our section are problematic about one of our minor subject. It's just a minor subject but we can't enrol for the next semester if we couldn't find solution to this problem! Darn it!

There are tons of problems, good thing is that I still find ways to overcome the sadness that problems give me. I have my JAMROCK friends. I really love them all. We've been friends for like 4 years and it's like we knew each other since birth. We had an overnight swimming and that made us closer to each other. I find myself lucky having those kinds of friends. Yeah they're really mean sometimes, but you'll surely laugh and have a good time when you're with them.
Also with my TRASHTALK AMF friends. We're just new but i enjoy company with them. Well I just hope that there will be no trouble to come.
One more thing is our new baby in the house, ADRIELLE, the son of my big bro. He's so cute and staring at him completes my day. I'm so excited for his growth and I wanna hear him call me "zietta vina" (Italian word for auntie).
And the one that makes me happy the most is my Ian Carlo P. Macuñal. His existence in my life is like a food to my soul. Yah I'm too young to feel this much love, but I think I'm lucky.We've been together for 17 months and not like others who just have the title of bf-gf thing, those months are all filled with love. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.

I think I've posted late, cause summer is like so over now. Well not a biggie. Im now tired of witing and my brain can't sequence all information it has. Till then. Adios. :)

IM BACK.. IM SO BACK!

EHH MEH GEHHD!!!!
it was like decades since my last post and i miss writing here so damn much! God! i have tons and tons and things to say!
it was like a month ago? and i am now really in the mood to tell stories! i mean NOVEL! xD
well, before anything else, i would like all of you to see the new me.. (look up!)
if you notice (or if not), i cut my hair.. well not actually me, but nanay did it.
she just cut the hair in front.. i have a bob cut before, and i feel not so comfortable having that hair, so i decided to just have a simple straight cut.. :D

ok, let's start from the very very very beginning.,
i had chicken pox, and my nephew came into this world.. but it'll be a small world for the two of us, so my bro convinced me to go to our province (bataan) and treat myself there.
when i was there, i felt the highest potential of loneliness a person could ever feel..
imagine me, in a house for like 24 hours a day 7 days a week. just inside the house alone!
yeah there are people in the house when it's night time but everyday, it was like burning hell!
i don't know what i did wrong and why i suffer like that..
i miss my friends, i miss our house, i miss our foods, i miss my family and especially i miss my carlo..
im so lonely that i had to cry just to sleep at night. i thought that that line was just for songs. but that's true..
well that was just on the first week..
but after few weeks, and after my bulutong, i sort of enjoy my stay there..
we went to our farm which is called hulo and that place was really nice.. you can relax and forget all your sorrows.. (i just wish i had pictures there.. tsk tsk..)
well, even though i kinda used to get along there, i still miss my home.. there is really a place im longing to go to..
because of a good/bad accident (it is ironic) of having a failing grade in accounting, i accidentally need to go home..
i was happy because at last im going home, but im so so soo sad, God i have failed?! what an embarasement that was!
so when i got home, i told nanay and tatay that problem, and thank God they didn't react too much..
not that biggie for my parents.. next problem :MY PROFESOR..
well that profesor is really hard to get!
he didn't listen to my explanation and he's not listenong to me. but i never give up! i stayed in hius office for about 3 hours and convinced him to give me another chance. he said i should pass assignments..
when i was about to go to school and pass those i assigment, i checked my grades to pup's site, I WAS SHOCKED!
i had a passing grade! im so happy!

no more problem so far, and i am so much happy.. :D