130 Days..

It's been 130 days of not touching you my blogspot. That made me miss you soooo much! I don't know if I've been just too busy that I didn't even look at you for about four months or I'm just tired, not on blogging, but tired on writing an English blog. That's stupid right? I don't know, I'm stupid, and stupidity like this is not a suprise from me.
I've made a blog on my Friendster account, and that's been an addiction to me. I write there with the language I use everyday and most of the time of my 17 year life. I write Tagalog, without stress, without nosebleeds, simple and easy. That's been easy, writing everything on my mind, expressing what I really want and showing my readers what I really want them to read from me. Yes, you heard it right, I have readers for God's sake. That's one of the advantages I noticed about blogs on Friendster. Lots of people, or even all the people here on earth have their Friendster account. There are thousands potential readers of my blog because I have like almost a thousand friends there. Thank God, there are people who noticed my tiny minnie love for writing. Comments are like heaven for me, specially when it's positive.
It's been really great, but there is just a thing that bothers me in writing Tagalog all of the time. My English capacity is going down. Just like now. I don't know if this blog I wrote sounds good. I'm not practicing my English, and I think it's not improving.
Well I'm back now. Just give me an adjustment period and I'll write better blogs here.

I will try to feed you my blogspot. At the first place you're my first blog, and I'll never forget you. :3

20 Months. ♥

I love you, that I don't know what words will fit to what I am feeling right now. You've been a part of me that I wont and will never let go. Seeing you everyday is like a food to my soul, that when I didn't see that face, it seems like there's no soul in this body. You turn every little simple thing into an extra ordinary special one. If I would die now and will be given a chance to live again, there would no other I would choose to love but you. My love for you is overflowing that my heart wanna get out of this ribcage and shout to the world, "HEY HUMANS! I LOVE THIS GUY AS HOT AS THE SUN!"

I love you so much, yesterday, now, tomorrow and forever my soul.

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Another cup.

Good morning. I woke up by the sounds of raindrops falling on the roof. I don't wanna get up. I wanna sleep and continue dreaming. Sleeping is one of the wonderful event in my life, and I treasure every dream, even nightmare I had. But I need to wake up. I should wake up.

Good thing there's my best friend. The COFFEE. He's always there when I'm about to give up everything I see in real life and just wanna play with my fantasies. I hate how it turns into an addiction. How it keeps me warm, how it keeps me up all night, and how it burns and makes my heart beat fast. Especially how it makes me crave for its rich, sweet promises of grains, cream and sugar. Moments later it puts me into a melancholic mood of coldness, and even before I realize, it has consumed me before I should have consumed it. And I still want another cup.

(:

WATTA DAY?!

June 23, 2009

It's 3:52PM , I'm here in front of if CEA (College of Engineering and Architecture) Building in PUP. Know what? I discovered something so beautiful here. I'm here in an out-of-the-country-like place. I don't know if this were Condo units or Apartment or whatsoever, but this is really nice. (If I have a chance to bring camera, I'll take some shots and show you guys how beautiful this place I was talking about.) Men this is DOPE!

I'm writing my blog here at my mobile. I just type everything I wanna and save it, then type it here to my blog when I got the chance. I really want to have a SANDBOX, but I don't know what's the problem. It's not working with my Nokia 5310 Xpressmusic. Dang, space was limited and I can't tell a lot.

By the way, I super hate the weather today! Lately, I was suffering from the annoying heat the day brings, and now, it's Goddamnhole raining! Then I just realized, everything is really unpredictable. All we need and we can do is just accept what life brings, and try to come up with best decisons in every trials we encounter.

Me? I chose to be like this. SIMPLE. Got happy with small good things people do for me, know where my place is and the most improtant thing is that I AM NOT A MIMIC! I know what I want and I'm not influenced that much by other peepz easily.

WOAH! And what the hell was that?! Hahaha! I really don't know what my topic is right now. Oh, let's just call this as a free-topic blog. Tell all you want until you have nothing to say. Haha!

Oh darn! I'll wait here until 6PM till Freya comes. We were going to watch Kenneth's band. I didn't heared them last gig I attended, and I want to hear them now. I know they're good. They're REGGAE ladies and gentlemen. I'm not a full blooded Reggae, but I love it. I'm a HipHop and RNB human, but I think HipHop and Reggae are like best buds. And if you're listening to Wave 89.1 (my super favorite radio station since I was like 8), they play Reggae songs every Friday, and that's a HipHop and RNB station guys. They never ever in my whole entire life played Rock or Emo or anything like that. Well the play 80's and Old Schools , but you get my point folks? I love Reggae cause it's in my nerves. I love listening to those that make me groove and move my ass out. I'm a music lover, but there's just one thing. I super dooper ultra mega hate those songs with screams and growls that give me severe headache! But of course, I respect others. I know there are lotsa people who are into Rock. Well I am absolutely not one of them.

Okay my fingers are tired and I have nothing to say. I still have tomorrow.

(:

45 Days.

45 DAYS.

45 days without touching my blog? Oh my?! That's a long long time. I don't know if I were just busy, or I just feel so lazy these past month about blogging anything. I just wish I have the new offer of Smart Buddy, the "SANDBOX" so whenever I feel bored and I'm too lazy to get up and face the computer, I can still write stuffs goin' on. I really want my blog to be updated, but I am just way too lazy for that.

Q: Okay, so what's new?!
A: What's new? It's been 45 days, and there are lotsa' new stuffs happened.
Q: Can you tell all of those stuffs you are saying?
A: Well I don't know if my brain can tell every little details happened from that period of time. If I tell all of those, you'll be like reading a novel. And I'm too lazy to tell all.
Q: Well then what the heck are you doin' here?!
A: I really dont know. I just missed blogging, so phuleez? (xD)

Things are all going into my mind, and I don't know how to sequence them. Okay lemmie say this, I will be actively post thoughts on my blog (even though I know there's no one reading it. Haha!), And it'll start now, and the next days..

BTW!
Look at my pic. I had my new hair. New hair = new me. Let me be specific with that word "NEW". I am now a good girl. I do my assignment, I listen to my lessons and I behave. I am tired of being that brat Vina. I want to be an angel now. Okay? (:

AFTER HOURS.. (INSOMNIA)

WWWWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is for real, I am now really suffering from that fuckin' insomnia! I wanna go to sleep like damn! I wanna rest my eyes cause my eye bags are so HUGE! My face has no space for new pimples and my skin is so fuckin' ugly! I'm just 17 years old but I think I look like 20! God! Please help me Lord. I don't know what to do. I close my eyes, but still stuffs are goin into my mind. I'm goin crazy now!!!!!
But I have my mom and my tito with me. They're still up right now. My mom bought burgers, and now that I'm full, it'll be harder for me to sleep! DANG! and I'll get up 3 pm, I can't watch wowowee.. huhuhuhu..
I'm tired, my mind and my body want to sleep but my eyes are not participating..

I love my BEYBS.. :)

I love them so much! I'll never ever ever find another Alexandra and Idessa in my life. I will hell never replace them. Well were friends for like more than 4 years, and they taught me how to live and enjoy life.
I'm happy now, cause the three of us had time to chit-chat, share smiles with each other, and i godhole miss that! We miss each other so much that we didn't notice the time was running. I'm so comfortable with them and so are they, we share everything, as in EVERYTHING! We never keep secrets. Actually, we are 5 that are really close to each other. Me, Alexandra, Idessa, Paula and Christine, but Tin and Pau were too busy. I miss that two too. Nothing can break us, specially Alex. I admire her so much. She never ever get mad even if you did really bad thing to her, and even though Marvin (her BF) and me have a conflict, she never let our relationship be affected by that.
But to tell you all honestly, I kinda miss Marvin. We've been good friends before, his nickname always made me laugh cause they call him BEN, that's why I called him MARBEN and he was the first one to call me BENA that other peepz call me now. I know it's my fault cause I said too much to him. I know their problem is outta my business, but I just love Alex so much that I am very affected of what are happening to her. Now, I want to get back our friendship, but he's way too mad at me and he don't want me to become his friend again. I regret losing Marvin as my friend. *sigh
Well he's happy now, I should be happy too!

:)

DDDDDAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRNNN IIIIIIITTTTTTTT!!!!!!!

GOD I REALLY HATE THIS GAME! You know what? We're havin' some problems because of this fvckin online game! It's all my big bro's fault. He taught Carlo how to play this fuhreakin' game and now he's so addicted to it that he don't give much attention for me. And know what? He's getting mad at me cause I don't let him go here at our house and play this sickening ROHAN! uuuuurrrrrggggghhhhh!!!! I'll teach him a lesson. I'll test if what's more important, me or that rohan. I am a jelous and selfish person. I want all his attention. Is it too bad? I'm just afraid to lose him.
:'(

SUMMERRRRRR..

GAHD! It was like 20 days ago since the last time I touched my blog, and I miss this stuff. Swear. It's not that I don't have much time or I'm just too busy with wutev', it's just that I AM SO LAZY. I wanna write something but my mind and my hands were too lazy to think and to type anything. And now, that I am experiencing one of the highest potential of boredom in my whole entire life, I was urge to write.

I saw my blog account and those blogs I've wrote before, and I was not happy. I realized, it's hard to read and my style was fugly. Now, I'll try to write as formal as I can so readers (if I have any) will not find it difficult to understand what I'm saying and they'll continue reading sh!ts about me. I'll write in a blue-jeans style that my Professor in English taught me before. I'll write it casually simple and easy to understand. Right?

OH MAH GAWD! I'ts summer, and ironically rainy season. I wanna go out and hang out wherever but the rain stops me now. I don't like this feeling. My excitement in life was not as before, and i feel a lil tired of everything. I want to do lots'a things but I don't know where I'll start. Yuh I'm happy, but there is something missing. Weird? I think so.

Oh let's just change the topic. UURRRGGGGHHH!!! School is really stressing me out! I had this problem before in one of my subjects and I've already solved it. Now all of us in our section are problematic about one of our minor subject. It's just a minor subject but we can't enrol for the next semester if we couldn't find solution to this problem! Darn it!

There are tons of problems, good thing is that I still find ways to overcome the sadness that problems give me. I have my JAMROCK friends. I really love them all. We've been friends for like 4 years and it's like we knew each other since birth. We had an overnight swimming and that made us closer to each other. I find myself lucky having those kinds of friends. Yeah they're really mean sometimes, but you'll surely laugh and have a good time when you're with them.
Also with my TRASHTALK AMF friends. We're just new but i enjoy company with them. Well I just hope that there will be no trouble to come.
One more thing is our new baby in the house, ADRIELLE, the son of my big bro. He's so cute and staring at him completes my day. I'm so excited for his growth and I wanna hear him call me "zietta vina" (Italian word for auntie).
And the one that makes me happy the most is my Ian Carlo P. Macuñal. His existence in my life is like a food to my soul. Yah I'm too young to feel this much love, but I think I'm lucky.We've been together for 17 months and not like others who just have the title of bf-gf thing, those months are all filled with love. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.

I think I've posted late, cause summer is like so over now. Well not a biggie. Im now tired of witing and my brain can't sequence all information it has. Till then. Adios. :)

IM BACK.. IM SO BACK!

EHH MEH GEHHD!!!!
it was like decades since my last post and i miss writing here so damn much! God! i have tons and tons and things to say!
it was like a month ago? and i am now really in the mood to tell stories! i mean NOVEL! xD
well, before anything else, i would like all of you to see the new me.. (look up!)
if you notice (or if not), i cut my hair.. well not actually me, but nanay did it.
she just cut the hair in front.. i have a bob cut before, and i feel not so comfortable having that hair, so i decided to just have a simple straight cut.. :D

ok, let's start from the very very very beginning.,
i had chicken pox, and my nephew came into this world.. but it'll be a small world for the two of us, so my bro convinced me to go to our province (bataan) and treat myself there.
when i was there, i felt the highest potential of loneliness a person could ever feel..
imagine me, in a house for like 24 hours a day 7 days a week. just inside the house alone!
yeah there are people in the house when it's night time but everyday, it was like burning hell!
i don't know what i did wrong and why i suffer like that..
i miss my friends, i miss our house, i miss our foods, i miss my family and especially i miss my carlo..
im so lonely that i had to cry just to sleep at night. i thought that that line was just for songs. but that's true..
well that was just on the first week..
but after few weeks, and after my bulutong, i sort of enjoy my stay there..
we went to our farm which is called hulo and that place was really nice.. you can relax and forget all your sorrows.. (i just wish i had pictures there.. tsk tsk..)
well, even though i kinda used to get along there, i still miss my home.. there is really a place im longing to go to..
because of a good/bad accident (it is ironic) of having a failing grade in accounting, i accidentally need to go home..
i was happy because at last im going home, but im so so soo sad, God i have failed?! what an embarasement that was!
so when i got home, i told nanay and tatay that problem, and thank God they didn't react too much..
not that biggie for my parents.. next problem :MY PROFESOR..
well that profesor is really hard to get!
he didn't listen to my explanation and he's not listenong to me. but i never give up! i stayed in hius office for about 3 hours and convinced him to give me another chance. he said i should pass assignments..
when i was about to go to school and pass those i assigment, i checked my grades to pup's site, I WAS SHOCKED!
i had a passing grade! im so happy!

no more problem so far, and i am so much happy.. :D

CHICKENFVCKS!!!

it's conrirmed, I HAVE CHICKEN POX!!
urrrrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!
i just hope these will not make any serious scars..
if i'll be send to hospital, i'll not be able to write anything on my blog ok?

*i hate this life*

EEEHHHH MEEHH GEEEHHHDD!!!!!!!!!

(use umbrellas this summer.. and it should be pink ok? xD)

OHH SHOOT!!!
I'm not able to write any blog yesterday because of tons of work to do..
i wanna say a lot, a lot that i don't know where I'll start..
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yesterday was as simple as those past few days in my life, but there is just a thing that made that day EXTRA ORDINARY..
while i was on lrt waiting to arrive at pureza station, i noticed something irritating at my hand..
there's a lil dot in my right hand, just like of a bulutong.
i just saw one so i didn't gave much attention to it.. but when I'm about to go home, i noticed that there were some of those bulutong-like rushes in my arms.. i was alarmed!
well it's not like a typhical chicken pox rushes that you can see on kiddos cause it is just tiny compare to a real chicken pox, but im afraid that it is!
so i showed ate (whick is a nurse) my rushes and she said that if it is a chicken pox, i should have fever first before i got the rushes.
when she said that, i saw light of hope whispering that this is not a chicken pox..
but right this morning, when i woke up, they all multiplied!
i got it at my back, my tummy and on my legs!
oh i so hate it! i mean i have so so many plans for summer, but it'll be ruin because of this chicken fncks!!
and i need to go to class! it's our final week!
i'll just ask nanay to come with me to the hospital this weekend to check out what are this rushes i have..

ANOTHER PROBLEM: our annual book on my high school was done!
i should be happy right? but NO! my picture ther was a big NO NO!
im so ugly there! i mean im not beautiful, but when you saw my pic there, i bet you'll laugh!
i was then about to laugh when sir viñas (photographer) got the picture..
i hate him! he didnt een told me that i was not looking good there! oh not looking good, not looking NORMAL!
my nose there were big (because im about to laugh)..
you can see into my face that i was trying not to laugh, and that made the picture a major embarassment!
for sure my schoolmates will tease me if they saw that.. and i will be again a clown for them..
uurrrggghhhh!!!!! i hate it! i hate this day! i hate this life!!
i think im having my bad karma because of my dirty deeds i did before..
just like on our exam..
i studied a lil, but come on, over 100 items, i only got 27! what the heck?!
but i didnt study hard and i still got 1.0 on our graded recitation there.. not that bad..

good thing i have my carlo..
he's making my life complete..

oh i just wish i'll pass this trials in my life..

:)

NONSENSE SPECULATION

ANOTHER DAY=ANOTHER BLOG

well, this day is not so important.. i mean there's no biggie thing happened..
actually, i hate this kind of day.. so dull..
I'm so bored that i don't know what to do..
i wanna do something to ease my boredom, but when i am about to do a thing, my boredom and laziness combined resulting to not doing' anything.. urrrgghh!!! i wish i was just busy..

I'm here in front of the PC, surfing and browsing and looking for stuffs.. i used to do this thing like always? and I'm so tired of it! i want to do something new.. something that will worth time..

i dont know.. maybe im just not in the mood.. God it's so hot!!!
i like summer yes because its the time of the year that people are all excited about.. bye to schools and hello to beaches.. bye to uniforms and hello to trendy swim suits. bye to black tops and hello to colorful comfy clothes.. there is just only one thing i hate about summer.. ITS SO DAMN HOT!!
so hot that even you wear sleeveless and you drink a lot of water with so much ice but still you can feel a drop of sweat running down on your neck.. DARN IT!
i wish i was doing something so that my focus is not on the temp. .

i want to make this summer different.. i want to find a SUMMER JOB..
i don't wanna be pain in my parents' butt financially..
i want to feel that independent feeling of using my own money..
but the big problem is HOW?
i mean how can i find a summer job if those who have abilities of having a job don't because of the huge crisis?
oh, whatev..
let's just see what will be the next scene..


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THE BEGGINING..

hello everyone! well this is the first time i'll post something here.. im just a newbie here.. i just have much energy to type and share everything i want to share and say everything i wannna say..
this day, is just an ordinary day for me.. no special events, no special happening.. just plain SIMPLE.. but there is just one thing that made this day kinda different from the other days.
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i cried this day, just because of watching tv! hahaha!
well im not that really surprise about my reactions on just watching something touching.. im just iyakin..
i simply cry with touching moments i see, like what i see on tv, on a movie, on what i read on the book or on the touching story of my friend..
well to make this short, i cried when i watched EAT BULAGA and their tribute for Francis Magalona..
well, i am really not a fan of him, but i can feel his lost.. he is a really big thing in our country and he did so much things for the one he loves..
i dont know him in person and i dont had any moment with him but i can feel and i can see trough the people around him that he has a big heart..
he made a big contribution to the philippine music and to the art..
i just saw his blog on multiply and i saw his phorography.. simple yet fantastic shots..
this may sound corny but im serious.. im really sad about his death,,
i will pray for him and i'll never ever forget him..
well i edited that pic on the top (↑) accidentally.. when im watching eat bulaga, i just realized i had a pic with 3 stars and a sun..
thats my way of salude for the king of rapper , FRANCIS M..

(do i sound corny? well i really dont know why i speak like that now.. he just really got into me..)

and you'll know more about me when i post my next blogs on the comming days.. :)